Just an observation

I've noticed that as I get older I learn that the term "best friend" goes far beyond fun text messages and good conversation. "Best friend" means still being friends after the awkward nights and weeks without talking. "Best friends" don't have to hang out every single night and talk every single day. And even though I know all of this, through experience and spoken word, I can get shaken to the core in an instant after anything less than awesome. And I know this isn't a characteristic to be proud of, it's a part of me and that's that. I'm insecure and I need reassurance ocassionally. I'm needy and like to talk on the phone sometimes. And I'm a sucker for hanging out, so I can take it kind of personally sometimes if I don't get to see my friends very much, or if it's anything less than awesome. All of these are aspects of my personality that I would love to change but no one is perfect, and in my opinion, these aren't really flaws, just things that make me who I am.
I know that I might seem a little clingy, or almost even "high maintenance", but to the that have put up with these little quirks of mine, I seriously want you to know how much it absolutely means to me. I love all of my friends with all of my heart, but especially a few friends that have stuck around over all of these years and all of my non-sense.
And I know that I've posted blogs like this before, and I never want my words to lose their meaning by saying it so much, but I also want to make sure I always let people how much they mean to me. I don't ever want to die without someone knowing what they mean to me.

And on a not so fun topic. There are some times and events and situations in life that cause relationships to drift apart. It isn't always personal, sometimes it's just time for a new chapter in life. I don't know specifically what the future holds in store, but I do know that this next year, calendar and school year, is going to bring a LOT of changes in my life and the life of the people around me. And I'm going to need to tell myself that some things happen in life aren't personal and I'll need to reassure myself a lot that "best friends" are still there after a few weird patches. I might need some reassurance from you too, you being whoever you are reading this, but you in a more specific sense, you as a few specific people who absolutely mean the world to me.

Sorry for such a lengthy post, but I had a lot to get out I guess.

Love (seriously),
Chris